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Shocking news and events really put me down at the moment. Crawling to stay focus now. To change??? The mindset and the routine??? Really need time to adopt and adapt for that. My angles are the faces that can soften my heart now. Tough times do come at the moment we think it is fine now. Allah remembers me and that is why Allah gives me this so that I will remember Allah as well. Allah wants me to keep on clinging and asking for Allah's kindness. This is hard but definitely not as hard as His test to the Palestenians and Syrias.  He will not test us with the thing that we can't cope. Thus, there are always ways and solution in every corner of life. Be strong to face it. Do not crawl to focus. I need to run cause time moves fast. Crawling will only put me way behind the datelines. Stop crawling. Move faster. Run. So many things need to be done. The dateline is just around the corner.  Ya Allah, gives me strength so that I can manage to face Your test. You are The Almighty ...

Syawal is still here.. Thus I would like to wish all Muslims, Happy Eid Mubarak.  Do we celebrate it well as Rasulullah did? 17th August 2008 till 17th August 2013. It was the Fifth Anniversary of our marriage. After everything that we had gone through, I am glad that we are still standing strong. With all the ups and downs, I really hope that we will stick like this till the end. The greatest gifts, our boys, Adzin and Azraei' the knot of the ties. Always remind me that I should be a good wife and mother. Thanks to Allah for giving me the chance of being his wife and their mother. Thanks Allah for the greatest gift in life; Him.

wearing wet towel - having fever    02082013 -  He is 7 months today. Like a blink of an eye, he is now grew one more month older. He is now able to move forward and love to play. He did not gain his weight and grew a bit taller. He had cough and phlegm in his 6 months. Poor Adzin cause he hardly eat since the phlegm makes him nausea. I do hope he will recover soon so then his weight will increase again. And today, on his  anniversary, he has fever. And yet he still active and play with me and his dad. He still laugh and smile. Poor Adzin, please get well soon. Oh Allah, please make him better. He will crawl soon, he always make the crawl stand but can't move his hands and feet properly and yet he keep on trying not to fell with his face on the floor. He still naps twice during day time and sleeps at 10 o clock at night. His first tooth was out. You can feel it if you your finger in his mouth. He can drinks with a glass now and really loves to drink water usin...

Beberapa tahun kebelakangan ini kita sering mendengar cerita anak meninggal kerana ditinggal di dalam kereta bagi tempoh masa yang lama. Ditambah dengan kes terbaru semalam di USJ4. Setiap yang berlaku sememangnya ada hikmah kepada yang mengalaminya. Bagaimana pula kepada kita yang mengetahui dan membaca mengenainya? Adakah kita mengambil iktibar daripadanya? Hikmahnya kepada kita yang mendengar tragedi ini adalah iktibar. Dengan mengambil iktibar kita akan lebih berwaspada dalam setiap tingkah kita. Terlalu banyak kes sebegini berlaku menunjukkan kita kurang mengambil endah isu isu sebegini. Tidak hairanlah syarikat insurans boleh menyaman semula ibu bapa atas tuduhan kecuaian keluarga sebagaimana yang terjadi kepada ibu bapa di Klang. Saya menulis hanya untuk menyeru kepada semua ambillah iktibar atas setiap apa yang berlaku walau hanya kita tersepak batu pun. Setiap apa yang berlaku pasti ada sebab musabab. Kitalah yang seharusnya menilai dan berfikir.

Adzin Aqmar at 1 day. At my mom's house. Spent confinement period at hers for two weeks. Had jaundice. A little amount. Not exceeded 10.00.   Adzin Aqmar at 1month old. During checked up. his weight was 3.7kg. Staring at anything during the day. Slept twice a day only. Slept all through the night. Once woke up for bf. Nurse advised to wake him up however I didn't do it coz he slept less during the day. Adzin Aqmar at 2 months. His weight was 4.3kg. Smiled and stared. Captured the smile. Sleeping Schedule, remained the same. Slept twice a day and the whole night through. Adzin Aqmar at 3 months. His weight was 5.3kg. Smiled and stared. Laughed and responded to voices and reactions. Sleeping Schedule, remained the same. Slept twice a day and the whole night through.     Adzin Aqmar at 4 months. Weight; 6.0kg. Began to move side to side but not yet rolling. Captured the serious face after woke up from his nap. Responded to his brother. S...

He is already 6 months now and there is none entry about him yet. Grrr... Sorry dear. Too much in my mind and I forgot to do this. It began at 1200 noon. I had the stomached, felt like something pushing the belly. I lied down cause I couldn't stand or sit; I hardly breathe if I sit or stand. The pain lasting for the whole evening. At 0000hrs, 1st Jan. I already felt the contractions. Very little contractions. I didn't want to wait until my water broke and since I was able to walk down the stairs on my own, so I asked my husband to take me to the hospital. Arrived at the hospital at 0230hrs. The rooms were full. I had to wait outside. Got a bed, lied down and wait for the doctor. The doctor came and checked me in the ward. Still early, only 2 cm. The pain continued and in normal contractions. The doctor came once again, and said it was 4cm now. I was glad, cause he will came out soon. At noon, I felt the strong contractions and called the nurse. I thought that this was it. W...

I really want to write something. And it seems that nothing is interesting enough to talk about. At the moment, the focus is my children only. How should I teach him this and that? When should I teach him reading? What kind of books? What he should learn today? And most of the time, I'm lost. Not just my attention at home, even at work. I feel like I am full of nothing. It feels like flying in a blurry sky and I don't know what to do. I am stuck. Stuck to what?

Having fever since yesterday.He stayed home and didn't went to his nursery today even when he wanted to . Thus, after his bath , he requested his sports outfit (with the shoes and socks) and I let him wore it. Because when I told him to wear his normal clothes and take off the shoes ans the socks, he beg an to cry. The same happened when he asked for al l the free toy sets th at was attached to his yo gurt milk that I already arranged in the freezer. I told him to wait a while then, there he went crying again. The worst behaviour ever. He never had a tantr um before no matter how sick he was. However , today everything seem ed so wrong for him. He ate everything th at he wanted and played every game and toy s that he saw but still no thing was able to make him sati sfi ed and the point that making him angr ier was when his foam aeroplan e fan broken. He blamed me, t hrowing his plane and the fan, and starting to cry . Then to cool him down, persuaded him to take a nap and...

We should teach our daughters about this. So they will know how to take care of themselves.  What is a pedophile? A pedophile is a person who has a sustained sexual orientation toward children, generally aged 13 or younger, Blanchard says. Not all pedophiles are child molesters (or vice versa). "Child molesters are defined by their acts; pedophiles are defined by their desires," Blanchard says. "Some pedophiles refrain from sexually approaching any child for their entire lives." But it's not clear how common that is. Does the medical community consider pedophilia to be a mental disorder? Yes. The American Psychiatric Association (APA) has included pedophilia in its Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders since 1968. In the DSM, which is updated periodically, pedophilia has been grouped with other paraphilias -- which the APA defines as "recurrent, intense sexually arousing fantasies, sexual urges, or behaviors t...

Spent 90 days at home since last year school break. The first 45 days, I finished up the unfinished task and prepared for the next term and the last 45 days for the maternity leave and still have 45 more days to go. My abstinence period has ended today thus I had create a list for the things that I want to do at home and also the list of task that need to be done when I finish my leave later.It will begin tomorrow however I won't tell cause it is a secret. My new born baby boy was borned on the 2nd January 2013 at 0118hrs. 78 minutes late from new year. It was an unforgettable moment and totally different situation from his big brother. On the 1st day; his size was; Weight : 2.825 kg Height : 48cm Abilities : Defecated during labour, thus we were discharged at 1400 hrs on 2nd January, cry and sleep He is now 45 days old. The check up went well and he gained a lot in size. During the 34 days old (cause that is the day he went to the clinic);   His size was; ...